Well, bright and early in the morning - which anymore has become about 10 AM - I leave for the beautiful city of Lubbock - a return to the nightmare - to see Dr. Syn and get my first report from him on my progress.
I am sure he will say I am still not eating enough protein or walking enough - but I really am doing the treadmill each day - and he will be right - I am still not eating enough protein. Do you know how difficult it is to find high protein, low sugar anything that tastes good? And one can swallow only so much skinless cooked chicken. I am increasing my sugar ability a bit so I can move to some of the edible protein bars - but still being careful not to take in to much sugar.
There are few comments being made anymore - maybe this is just an exercise for myself these days. But it feels good to sit down and say some things about this process now and again.
Food and I are having a real battle - I am never hungry - and food doesn't really taste all that amazing anymore - maybe that is the lack of fried, sauced, and sugared food - but I do understand that.
I have finally hooked up on the Dr.'s patient message boards and chat room and that has been very helpful. I am meeting a lot of new people who are having some of the same issues I am having and finally found the Albuquerque support group - I will join upon my return from TX.
Well - off to bed so I am ready for the long trip tomorrow - hugs - Chuck
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Sorry I have been lax on the comments, but I do check your blog several times a week to see how you are doing. There is a book by Stacey Halprin called "Winning after Losing" that is her journey after by-pass surgery you might find some help reading it. Food is always the battle isn't it, if we are not eating too much or the wrong things its the taste. Remember how important it is for you to stay the course so that the pouch doesn't stretch. I guess it is eat to live not live to eat from now on. You knew it wouldn't be easy and the battle is always to overcome ourselves. Remember the pain of not being able to do the things you wanted to do and the reasons that got you to this point. The taste of the food or what you eat is something you only experience for 10 or 15 minutes each meal and then you have the rest of the day to be you. Please be careful on your trip to texas and stay strong.
So sorry you're off to TX! I just came back. Someday soon we'll have to sit down over margaritas and I'll tell you all about the insanity of it all. (Can you do margaritas any more?!?) Have a good trip and let's talk when you get back.
xoxo
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